When life hits you and all the sudden you see things VERY differently and your eyes open to an entirely new world, then you think, “How do these people do it?”
This has been my life the last several months. As my kids have struggled and BIG changes have happened, I have often thought, “Who else lives like this? I can’t be alone.”
I am not alone.
There are thousands of people dealing with similar circumstances, and they have persevered through it all.
Making tough decisions that affect your family are HARD.
Knowing that the choice you make will affect your children is the WORST.
Believing that others around you can empathize is PRICELESS.
One of the blessings of tribulations is that this whole new world reveals itself. It was always there, but you ignored it. You are part of a secret club that you didn’t know existed. All of a sudden, the posts you made on facebook or the comments you made at a dinner party seem so insensitive, and you are so sad that you hurt people with your words. You can’t believe that you didn’t understand what they were going through.
You ask forgiveness for your foolishness and pray they will forgive.
The last two weeks have been rough. I have doubted, second guessed, felt guilty, screamed in anger, and cried in pain.
Yet I know that God is here for me. I know through the many wonderful signs of confirmation that He has sent me that I am on the right path. It has tons of storms, but in the end there is a beautiful rainbow. A rainbow that lights up a path that I never knew was there, but I am sure am happy to see the people that are lining it, strengthening it, and cheering me on to persevere through it.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And Wisdom to know the difference.