The anger seeped through me. I could feel it in the depth of my soul. When I moved around the room, my anger moved right along with me. My words spewed out the anger within me. Those words were used to ignite the anger in others. It was a sad sight and when I look back on those dark years it sends a shrill down my spine. God was no longer guiding me. The devil was.
Back in my teens and twenties I fell away from God. It was a dark time in my life and finding happiness was few and far between. Most of my days were searching out people who shared my same sorrow. We surrounded each other with envy, pride and materialistic happiness. When one of us got angry, we all shared in that anger. We gossiped. We yelled at those that hurt us. We shoved our pains into the open air for all to see. We had good times, but they were short-lived. Life was a daily pain – one after another.
The difference between those dark days and my days now are like night and day. Today when I get anger I yell out to God. My happiness is not based on materialistic items. Instead it is based upon the love that God gives me and I am able to share with others. My hope in the life that He has to offer me after this life on earth is all I need. I surround myself with those that love God and share in my faith. We pray for others and do for others not just because that is what God says (even though he does), but because it is the right thing to do.
I can pinpoint people in those dark days very easily (because I was one of them). They are all around me. I can see that sadness is in their eyes. I can see that loneliness is in their soul. I know that feeling so well. I can feel that evil exude from their soul. I think it is a gift God gave to me after those dark days because I can immediately pray for them to open their hearts to something real.
We should all be praying for these people because they need our prayers. I am choosing to take those dark days and turn them around into light days. Now I like to think I spew out love wherever I go. My light shines for all to see and embrace. My words are used for His goodness. God is within me. My happiness is eternal.
I am so grateful for turning my heart toward God. I cannot imagine what my life would be like without him. Today, let’s all say a special prayer for those turning to evil instead of placing their hope in God.
Lord, we extend your love to all those around us. Let each one of us touch at least one person today with that beautiful, unconditional love that you have given. For all those suffering, please offer them your healing hope. For all those in dark places, shine your light. For all those infecting others with their darkness, grant them your eternal peace. God we want to help you spread your love. We want to be instruments of your peace.