The words wouldn’t come out of her mouth. She knew what she wanted to say, yet she was tongue-tied. It was just a game, so why was she so incredibly frustrated that she couldn’t get the words out. Her speech teacher was holding up a card, and all she had to do was describe it with words. Why couldn’t she do it? Her anxiety built up and she screamed out, “I don’t want to play this anymore.” The teacher knew she had pushed Katie (my youngest daughter) to her limit. She calmed her down, and led her back to the picture. Somehow through the teacher’s words and cues, Katie described the picture with words. Amazing (and frustrating at the same time).
My youngest suffers from some auditory processing issues. They really limit her learning at school. She knows in her brain lots of facts and words, but getting them out is a whole different ball game. Because of this, she cannot communicate well to others. In fact, she comes off bratty, mad and bitter sometimes. It all happens when her frustration level reaches its peak.
I have seen complete strangers that are taken aback by Katie’s intensity. They look at her, then look at me, and give me “that” look. You know that one. The one where they judge me. It’s okay though, I am used to it by now.
Can you imagine having all these words up in your head, yet not being able to communicate to people with those words? Can you imagine wanting people to understand your point, yet every time you talk no one gets what you say? The anxiety is building up in me right now and I am just thinking about it!
My family calls this “Katie language.” Katie Language happens when you cannot quite get your point across to another person. Some people will begin to speak Katie Language after being around her for a while. Everyone in my home gets her. We all know what she is saying even though she cannot say it.
I started to think today, this is how God communicates with us. It isn’t always clear. Sometimes it is so frustrating when you want God to say something, but He isn’t. (Or is He)? I think God speaks Katie Language. It isn’t the usual language that we are waiting for. He doesn’t talk clearly in our ear most of the time. Sometimes others have to talk for Him (because they speak His language). Sometimes He uses circumstances to talk to us. Sometimes He uses His writing – scripture. You just never know what or how He is going to say, but when He does it is so important that we listen carefully.
When Katie talks, you have to read between the lines (and above and below) because her words sometimes come out all garbled up. They don’t make sense, but if you piece them all together they form this beautiful finished puzzle.
God does the same thing. He gives us pieces of the puzzle and when we finally solve it all – the finished product is unbelievable. The key is we have to be patient and really listen. I mean listen.
When I listen to Katie, it is always good if I let her finish her entire thought process. If I interrupt, she will begin it all over again, which means I have to sit patiently through the whole story again. It can be very difficult, long and tedious on my brain. God needs us to do the same for Him. He needs us to be silent and still with our complete trust and mind on ONLY Him. It seems impossible, but it isn’t. In the end it will be so worth it.
God’s plan is right in front of us. All we have to do is wait patiently for Him to reveal His plan. Piece by piece He will reveal it to us. Just like Katie Language, it will all become clear eventually, we just have to wait lovingly for Him to finish.
Romans 8:26-28 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.