I needed to be filled today. For the first time in a while, I felt like I couldn’t find God this morning. I searched in several of my online apps – he wasn’t there. I looked on my favorite website – he wasn’t there. I thought about my day this morning, searching for God in someone or something in my house – he wasn’t there. The only thing I heard was complaints about how many brownies someone ate last night. Where are you God?
I glanced out my picture window, no God. I looked at the stack of bibles, reading materials and reflections on my kitchen table, no God. Where was He? Why wasn’t He talking to me this morning?
It finally hit me. He must be in the laundry. As I stumbled to the basement to throw in some laundry, I saw a few other rooms that needed cleaned up. Maybe God would be there if I just cleaned up that area. Still no God.
I know what you are thinking. You are thinking – “Anne, he is right there, why aren’t you seeing or hearing Him.” I know. I really know, but I could not find Him.
My selfishness was blocking my view of God. I was thinking about my checklist of things to do today and tomorrow and the next day. I was overwhelmed by my situation. There is so much on my plate. I just want this weekend to be over. Yet it hasn’t even begun.
I couldn’t see God because I was self absorbed. Something I claim my teenagers suffer from all the time. Today, I was under the hand of my own ego.
God is here. He is right here in my home, in my computer, on my websites, in my laundry room , under the stack of dirty clothes. He is waiting for me to see Him, to hear Him and to reach out to Him. He is waiting patiently like a game of Hide-and-Seek. He is even giving me hints.
My mother-in-law used to play Hide-and-Seek with my kids. She would go hide somewhere and when they couldn’t find her, she would yell out “yoohoo.” They would get so excited trying to find that voice. When they finally uncovered grandma, the smile on their face was priceless.
Today, I am listening for God’s “yoohoo;” for Him to sweep me out of my selfishness and take me into His arms. When I finally release my worries and things to do, then God will reveal Himself to me once again.
I was in need of God today. I so wanted to find Him. I was desperate for His help. I couldn’t seem to locate Him. Yet, He was right there under my nose. Until I let go of my selfishness though, until I recognized that He is all I need, until I released it all to Him; He was going to stay in His hiding place. Not because He wanted to hide, but because I forced Him to hide.
So, this morning, I gave it all to Him.
Phillipians 4:12-13 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.