I apologized to God this morning.
My regular time with Him had been interrupted this week by life. TJ, my 13 year old son, had many appointment this week: 2 assessments for high school and an orthodontist appointment for a broken bracket. Believe it or not he then fell ill. I am sure his little body just gave out with all the stress of doing well on two tests. My oldest, Megan, has her exams this week. Because of the exam schedule her school schedule is all messed up. She goes late to school, comes home early and in between has track practice. Of course, I still had my own schedule of events too. I have three impending talks to give and preparations for that was imperative.
Anyway God, as you can see, I am just justifying why I did not spend time with you. I am sorry.
Imagine my surprise when I was so exhausted this week that I found myself in bed by 7:30pm most nights. Each night, as I reflected on my day, I could not visualize what I had accomplished. This just made me more exhausted.
This morning though, I felt God’s little nudge on my heart. “Come to me and rest. Come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest.”
Comfort overcame me completely. I fell upon the book of Ephesians and listened to Paul exclaim his praise to the Ephesians for their faithfulness.
Ephesians 1:1 I, Paul, am under God’s plan as an apostle, a special agent of Christ Jesus, writing to you faithful believers in Ephesus. I greet you with the grace and peace poured into our lives by God our Father and our Master, Jesus Christ.
Paul wrote to the Ephesians exclaiming their faithfulness. He called them “faithful believers in Ephesus.” Paul took at least two trips to Ephesus. One of these trips was for 3 years! He must have witness great faith in this city to call them faithful believers.
God nudged me to Ephesians for a reason today. As my eyes gazed down my chronological study bible today, I read this:
“Hold fast to your faith, one day at a time; faithfully obey God, even in the details of life. Then, like the Ephesians, you will be known as a person who is faithful to the Lord.”
Even in the details of life (my kids’ schedules, my errands, my chores, etc.) God needs me to stay faithful to Him. If I ignore Him during these rough patches, I will be weary. My body will give up. My heart will be empty. Keeping God at the forefront of each day is so important. It gives my body rest. It reminds me that He sees good in all I do. It keeps me focused on Him instead of the world.
Converse with God today. Recognize all the good He does for you. Thank him for everything. Accept the Grace that He is giving you. Allow Him to shower you with love and reveal to you the beauty that He sees in you every day – even when you are busy checking off your daily list.
So I apologized to God today because I was pushing Him out of my busy schedule and justifying why this was okay. It isn’t okay. I need Him all the time so that I will not grow weary.