Do you have a prayer that you pray for all the time? Maybe not every single day, but when you pray, you find yourself always offering up this one prayer. I do. I have a person in my life that I pray for constantly. I find myself asking for God’s help. I pray to open this person’s heart. I pray that God’s light will shine in this person’s life. Today though I offered up the same prayer, but it was different. I took away the control that I had always offered up with this prayer.
Somewhere hidden deep down in my prayer I wanted God to do something for me, but in my way and in my time. I wanted God to shine His Light down on this person, but I wanted it with my boundaries. I wanted it in a way that made ME comfortable.
God reminded me today that He has not been giving me what I want because I was putting stipulations and conditions on His power. Things may not turn out how I want. Things may be done slightly different or vastly different. I had to be okay with that. Today I let go.
Letting go and letting God took on an entirely different meaning for me today. Oddly enough, it gave me an intense amount of peace in the midst of a very sad situation. God’s strength and power can only take over if we allow Him to do so. I had been holding on to my own desires – my perfect solution. Unfortunately, God’s perfect solution was that I relinquish control and let Him do His thing.
My perfect solution was creating a world of chaos, stress and fear. All along I couldn’t understand why God didn’t see how great my plan was. All along I couldn’t figure out why God didn’t pat me on the back for this fabulous solution to this very big problem. Why can’t you see it God? Why can’t you just make this happen? My perfect solution kept creating anxiety in my life. Sure, it would go a way for months at a time, but it always resurfaced. It always came back to haunt me. What is going on here? God, I told you what I need, why are you not taking care of this for me?
Yesterday, I read these exact words from scripture:
“But the angel said to him, “Do not be afraid, Zechariah,
because your prayer has been heard.
Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son…
Then Zechariah said to the angel,
“How shall I know this?”
DO NOT BE AFRAID. MY PLAN IS BETTER, ANNE. MY PLAN WILL UNFOLD IN MY TIME. DO NOT BE AFRAID OF MY PLAN. YOUR PLAN IS FILLED WITH HUMAN ERROR, MY PLAN IS PERFECT.
Then today I read these exact words from scripture:
And coming to her, he said,
“Hail, full of grace! The Lord is with you.”
But she was greatly troubled at what was said
and pondered what sort of greeting this might be.
Then the angel said to her,
“Do not be afraid, Mary,
for you have found favor with God.
Behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son,
and you shall name him Jesus.
DO NOT BE AFRAID. MY PLAN IS DIFFERENT FROM YOURS.
God’s answers to our prayers are not going to look like we want them to. Until we take away all of our selfish desires and give in to God’s plan his answer may never be revealed to us. Today, I gave in. Today I can see that God’s plan is way different than mine – and that’s okay. He will give me the strength to conquer this day and the next and the one after that. He will show my friend His Light – in His perfect time and in His perfect way.
Christmas is such a wonderful time for some and for others it is very depressing. Our emotions about this glorious birth of a King are different for each of us. No one is wrong. Just remember those emotions are indicators of your faith journey. How much do you really trust that God’s plan for your life will be perfect? An even harder question is how much can you let go of YOUR perfect plan in order to let God’s plan be revealed? DO NOT BE AFRAID. HIS PLAN IS PERFECT.
Merry Christmas everyone! See you after the first of the year!