Swinging on the playground, Katie looked around and saw no one she recognized. She knew that we had told her we were just beyond the finish line of the race watching her sister run a 5K in her cross country meet. She knew that we were around because our chairs and water and bags were just next to the playground area. Yet, she doubted it. Katie found herself confiding in a “grandma.” She told the woman, “My parents deserted me. Can you watch me play?” The grandma of course said that she would, and Katie felt at ease once again.
A few minutes later, I arrived between races to check on her. The “grandma” was still sitting there watching her own grandkids and Katie. We shared a laugh about the situation, then I pulled Katie to the side. I explained that we would never leave her and it probably wasn’t a great idea to tell a stranger that we “deserted” her. Next time, just take a seat in one of our chairs and wait for us. She looked at me, doubtfully. She just kept thinking in her little mind that if she couldn’t see us, then we weren’t there.
I feel like this with God sometimes. I see His chair and all His belongings, but yet I doubt that He is truly there watching over me. I try to find someone else to care for my needs, yet it is just not the same. You see the empty chair is so obvious that He is returning. His belongings show me that He will come back. I have such little faith that I allow my anxiety and worry to take over, and next thing you know, I allow Fear to win.
I could do just as I told Katie, “sit and wait,” but I have no patience for that. Sitting and waiting for God to respond can take time and when I need Him, I NEED HIM RIGHT THEN! Just like Katie sought out a replacement for her neglectful parents – I search out a replacement for God. It is never good. I usually find solace in food, people or things. I cannot help it.
What I have found is when I wait for Him, with patience and perseverance, I find the ultimate peace that I need. The substitute god never gives me peace. It gives me pleasure, but no where near peace.
Once I showed my presence to Katie, she felt a calm that only a mother can give her. She was once again happy and playing on the swings. That is what God does for me. He fills that part of my soul that no other can fill. He gives me that peace that no other thing or person can give. He completes me.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
I John 1:2-4 The life appeared; we have seen it and testify to it, and we proclaim to you the eternal life, which was with the Father and has appeared to us. We proclaim to you what we have seen and heard, so that you also may have fellowship with us. And our fellowship is with the Father and with his Son, Jesus Christ. We write this to make our joy complete.