Fear, doubt and insecurities have plagued me the last several months. I have somehow left a small hole open that leads to my heart and doubting thoughts have clogged the pathway to my soul. I can see what God wants me to do, but the doubts overtake me. “You are unworthy. Someone else could do it better. No one wants to read or hear anything from you. You don’t have time to do this.” Oh, the thoughts that have hindered me from spreading God’s Word.
As I spend daily time with God, he reminds me that I need to keep my #palmsup. Open up my hands and expose my palms so that I can receive Him and push away those fears and doubts that I have allowed to seep into my soul.
John 20:27 Then he said to Thomas, Put out your finger, and see my hands; and put your hand here into my side: and be no longer in doubt but have belief.
Even Jesus’ disciples doubted Him. Thomas was the first one to admit aloud that he didn’t believe Jesus. Jesus gave Thomas the opportunity to touch, see, hear, and smell the truth. God has given me those opportunities too. He allows me to see Him through others; through their words and their actions. Those glimpses come from all sorts of people; through my own children and husband, through church and through strangers.
When He reveals himself through my doubt, it reminds me #palmsup. Open my heart to what God has to say and let go of my insecurities. As I flick open my palms, I release my insecurities (my doubts and fears) and as my hand relaxes with palms up toward God, I absorb Him completely.
Hebrews 12:1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us
As I open my eyes to God’s call for me to say “yes,” I realize that just like the Hebrew verse says, it will take perseverance and persistence. It will not be an easy task. In order to get to the finish, I will have to push away all those anxieties and fears. I will need to eliminate all those holes to my heart that evil can filter into. I will need to see clearly see the finish that God has laid out for me. I will need to open my palms and say, “Palms Up.”