In the midst of this chaotic week, I found myself asking God, “Why on earth do I have so many burdens this week? What are you trying to tell me?” Life just seems very overwhelming to me the week after my vacation. Maybe it is because I let my life slow down to a halt while on vacation. I didn’t blog. I didn’t think about things breaking in my house. I didn’t think about responsibilities that I was going to be face to face with when I returned home. Nope, I just let vacation take over. It was wonderful. It was a reprieve that I needed. Unfortunately, when I arrived home, I was slammed with burdens.
After 8 visits from a water softener specialists, my water softener still is not operating. I know it seems like a little thing, but when you are on well water trust me it isn’t. When not softened the water can become rust colored, it smells and it is just downright gross to drink (which we don’t). I came home to the problem once again. On top of that, I had volunteered for vacation bible school (which I love), but it engulfs most of my morning. The cherry on this sundae is that my kids all have camps and games this week. When I leave vacation bible school, I then get to drive my kids all around town to their activities (with a gas price of $4.25/gallon); plus doctor appointments, plus dog grooming appointments, plus all those little things that just come up. I haven’t even been able to start my day like normal – blogging and spending time with God. Yep, life has seemed very overwhelming.
So maybe you can understand why I questioned God about my burdens. Maybe you have been there too. When life just seems to pile down upon you, then you stop and think – “what am I doing?”
Psalm 61:1-2 Hear my cry, O God; Give heed to my prayer. From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
In this Psalm, David cries out for God to help him when he is overwhelmed by earthly worries. He asks God to lead him to the “rock” that is higher than him. Sometimes I just need to climb up that rock which allows me to look over all my decisions; to oversee the “city” of my mistakes and blessings. I ask God to let me look over everything so that I don’t become overwhelmed like this again. I know that God will take these worries off my heart. I know that my headaches will cease to exist if I can just see what truly needs to be done and push aside the rest.
That is exactly what I have done this week. When it really got overwhelming and chaotic, I had to choose what things were important and what things were not important: what things can be pushed to the side for the day, and what things need to get done right now. I climbed the rock to oversee my life of chaos. It wasn’t pretty to look at. I sure had over committed myself. I wanted to turn my head and run, but I didn’t.
I have a tendency to take off and shut down when I become overwhelmed. I was not going to do that this week. I was going to pummel through it like a front line offensive football player. Watch out! Things have started to slow today. (Obviously because I am writing a blog). I have taken my chaos to prayer. After being pummeled to the “field of life,” I have picked myself up and walked back onto the “playing field.” Sometimes, God calls us to do just that. I am not running away from these issues. I am tackling them head on.
Find a way to take on your tough days – use prayer, use faith, use God!