Last night I had the privilege of leading discernment for a group of women. It reminded me that the Holy Spirit will work in beautiful ways if we just allow Him to do so. So when I woke up this morning and opened up my devotional only to see this beautiful scripture, I realized that God shows his Glory through our humility. These women were discerning their ministries for a weekend retreat. It can be exhausting to go through discernment, but that is not what I saw last night. No, there was not one person who looked exhausted or angry. In fact, they all looked happy and joyous that God was working in their lives. I heard more than one of them say that they just want to serve God in whatever capacity is needed. They clapped and smiled as each ministry was discerned for last night.
I wish I worked like that in my life. My hurt feelings and anger just shine out when things don’t go my way. One of my friends even said to me the other day, “I would hate to be on the receiving end of your words when someone crosses you.” At first I thought, that is true. When someone crosses the line with me, I do lash back – especially when it involves my kiddos. I am a mother lion guarding my young. But I don’t want people to think of me as a hot-head or a “blower upper” (I talked about blower uppers months ago in a blog posting). I want people to see humility and gentleness within me. Those women last night showed me a beauty to the side of humility that I had not witnessed before. Tears were in many eyes as one woman relinquished a ministry that she had discerned for. She listened to another team member give a story about why she felt a calling for the same ministry, and this woman humbly gave up something that she too had prayed about. You know why? Because she wanted to see God’s Will be done by someone new. She wanted to see this woman experience God in a new Light. She wasn’t looking out for herself – she wanted to witness God – and she realized that could be done through her sister in Christ! How awesome is that!
You see when we allow God to work humbly through us, we show others that God is powerful, awesome, but yet beautiful all at the same time. Humility is a way to show God that we fully trust Him; we are ready to relinquish the power to Him; we are willing to decrease ourselves, as we increase Him (John 3:30).
What I am asking myself today is – am I ready to relinquish all the power and honor to God OR am I still holding the power and honor for my own glory?