Disappointed. That is how I feel today. Yesterday, someone I consider a friend really let me down. It was downright hurtful and sad. Today, I woke up just feeling, blah. Have you ever experienced this before? Disappointment can really hit you hard. As I spent time talking to my friend, I realized that I was being lied to. I didn’t say anything on the phone during our conversation about the suspected lies, but I knew without a doubt that he was not telling me the whole truth. His lie was going to cost me financially (because we are involved in some business together) and more importantly, it was going to hit me mentally. I trusted him. How could he do this to me and my family? It really stung. So, when I hung up the phone with him, I prayed. I prayed for his health and well-being because I knew he must be suffering to do this to me. I prayed for his family. I prayed for whatever was causing him to basically stab me in the back.
Leviticus 19:18 You shall not take vengeance, nor bear any grudge against the sons of your people, but you shall love your neighbor as yourself; I am the Lord.
I realized this morning that my disappointment was causing me pain and anguish that I needed to release. It was going to take a lot of prayer today to allow God to work through my sadness.
If I let the disappointment get the best of me, I will lose sight of God. I certainly don’t want that to happen. It is so easy for me to get sucked into someone else’s issues especially when they pull me into the situation. I was not going to let that happen today. “God, please take away these hurtful feelings today. Remind me of all the good that this person has done for me. Remind me that he is human and will let me down, but it doesn’t mean he is doing it on purpose.”
Yesterday, Katie was having a hard day. She took it out on TJ and me after school. She said hurtful things to both of us and ended up in her room by 5pm. Once I calmed down, I went in and asked her to think of 3 good things about TJ. She said, “I love him. He is nice. He makes my lunch for me.” Perfect. When Katie started to get mad at Pete and Megan yesterday, I did the same thing. “Say out loud three good things about Daddy and Megan.” She did and even went a step further by personally telling them. Now, they really had no idea what Katie was up to, so they brushed off her comments, but it helped Katie. Instead of dwelling on her disappointment, she saw the good in each of her family members. Do you see where I am going with this? That was no coincidence that God put that situation in my life yesterday. He was preparing me for the late night conversation I had with my friend.
So today, I thought and said out loud three good things about my friend. Every time disappointment seeps in, I will once again find three more good qualities in my friend. I consider this arming myself against the evil thoughts that fester in the disappointment. You know what I am talking about? When we let disappointment grow and thrive in our soul, it creeps around throughout our entire body and grows like a bed of thistles. I cannot stand thistles. They are next to impossible to kill in your yard. They have giant root systems that just cling together into one big, huge thistle bundle. That is what will happen to my faith, if I let disappointment continue to fester.
Luke 10:27 And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your strength, and with all your mind; and your neighbor as yourself.”
My friend gave me the gift of a great lesson. Even though it hurt deeply, I realize that I have to see the good out of the bad. I cannot change people, but I can change the way I think. I need to return my mind to God and not dwell on the evil. We all suffer from disappointment. When we place our trust in someone we care about, we expect to receive respect and kindness in return. The thing is: that is not the promise that God gives us. There is no commandment that states if we love our neighbors, they will treat us fairly. In fact, we can bank on that when we place our trust in people, they will let us down. That is just part of life. It is human nature. So in order to return our hearts to God, we must look for the good among the bad; the rose among the thorns. Trust me it exists. We just need to open our eyes to it, so that we can fixate on the most important aspect of our life: God.