Why do I ever doubt that time alone with God is worthwhile? Why do I choose my own selfish desires over time with God? Why do I convince myself that I can do it without asking God first? “Come to the River” by the Rhett Walker Band was just on the radio and reminded me once again that spending time with God alone is so important. Here are the lyrics:
I’m torn between myself and your truth
These cursed memories, forever seeping through
My thirst for myself left me wanting more
Till I found myself face down on your shore
You say Come to the river
Lay yourself down
And let your heart be found
You say come to the river
Drink from the cup I pour
And thirst no more
My restless heart, led me astray
To my selfish pride, I became my own slave
But you placed a thirst in me, with no drink in sight
Cause I could not see, till I saw through your eyes
It is so easy to get caught up in my own selfish desires. Sometimes I get so bogged down in my problems, my kids, and my checklist of things to do, that I lose sight of the importance of being with God. I convince myself that my one hour at church, my bible study or my writing make up for the lack of time I spend with God. They don’t. I need to sit down (just like the song says) and spend time alone with God. I must rejuvenate my soul.
Why do I deny myself this wonderful experience? It comes down to my own selfish desires. I allow the “world” to take over my heart and push God to the side. I allow the “world” to convince me that God is not important. I allow the “world” to dictate that I can do it alone.
You know when I realize that my time with God is lacking? It is usually when God stops me dead in my tracks. You know; a struggle or a dilemma. I start to become overwhelmed with my world. I start to see that I cannot do this on my own. The clouds have overcome my life and turned my world into a severe storm. I can no longer see the rainbows, the sun, or the overall beauty of what God has created. I can only see me and my problems; I can only see the storm. That is when I realize that I have neglected God.
Don’t wait until that storm hits you. Reach out to God daily. Spend time alone with God. Start with five minutes, then make it ten, then make it 30 minutes. Don’t wait!
Psalm 23:1-4 The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.